I don't know if I will ever be able to describe my exact feels for you but here you are:
Your smile lights up my whole entire world. I could be crying from some unknown reason and I see one picture of you and I instantly just stop and smile back. You can make me cry also,but for all the right reasons. I also feel that you are almost as if my knight in shining armor but you've never saved me and we haven't even ever been close to meeting in person. I find every single little detail about you fascinating and beautiful. Your hands are shaped perfectly like they were meant to hold mine it feels like. Your lips looks so adorable and round i just wish i could kiss them. Your eyes are just so unique looking to me too,Almost in a fantasizing way.
Even the damn way you walk makes me feel like exploding every where. None of you understand this feeling I get. I'm unlike any other fan out there and none of you will ever understand,or probably a very small fraction will atleast. I don't really feel like i can marry him or even date him,I feel like it's meant to be almost. I know others feel that way too but it's different! I know it is! I just...I just feel different. I've never felt this way towards any human I've come into contact with before. The feelings are over whelming almost. When you cry,I cry. When you laugh and smile,I laugh and smile along with you. When you get excited,I get excited. When you are exhausted,I wish I could be there for you and help.
People look at me sometimes and find it foolish that I am young and are writing such things and are thinking such things. Questioning,"But he's older than you! How could you date someone like that?" or "But he's Asian!" I could care so much less. If you was Hispanic,Australian,American, African,British,or anything else regardless of background,I would love you for you. that's it. That's all. Famous or not. Perfect or not. I love you and only you for the rest of my life until the day we meet I promise you.
I promise even though we have never met each other and will never meet each other I promise to keep myself all for you until the day we meet For forever and always~
I wish I could pull you into a hug and read you this so bad,face to face even though you would never understand me since our language barrier. But that's okay,right? It's okay we are so different from each other because maybe that's what makes us perfect for the other....Right?
"Sometimes,The smallest things take up the most room in your Heart."
That's a quote from Pooh I have learned to love because it makes so much more sense lately. One summer day my brother simply showed me a SHINee music video of the name 'Lucifer' and for that music video that had only taken up three minutes and 58 seconds of my life time,It had become a specific moment. The moment I fell in love with you and every little thing about you. Your manly side,your sweet side,your aegyo,your derping, your everything.
You are my everything.
And I hope some day we do get to meet and don't have any language barrier so I can read this to you to tell you how i feel,because you know what?
I love you and only you.
I love the Lee Taemin and I am proud to speak it out loud for all to here. I love you for you,so never change. Please stay forever the same. Please stay my sweet hearted, goofy, lovable,beautiful,manly,cute,perfect Lee Taemin .